The First 480 Words of
INSTRUCTIONS ON THE USE OF THE M-57 CLACKER
from BEAT THE REAPER
“So,
you kill anybody?” Arinello said. No one else had asked.
Libassi
had put a million rounds into the dark. Careful three-round bumps or Mad-Minutes
on full-auto, a thousand year-old wall between him and Charles, the stink of
nitro coating his throat, muzzle-flashes right, left, forward, above, like
stars.
“Probably,”
he said. “Why?”
“Just
wondering’s all. You was scared?”
The
ceiling at O’Dwyer’s Fishtown Bar-Liquors-Beer
was still pressed tin. O’Dwyer was dead, old age, cancer, something, but
his ceiling? That was the same, sure-sure. Libassi’s eyes wandered. He read the
tin landscape cold, like a field map of the Highlands. “Scared? Fuck yeah.”
Then, “Okay no. Well at first, then it goes inside. Then, ‘I see the light,’
clack-clack.”
“Fuck,
I know you, Libassi. Scared shitless! What’s that? Clack-clack?”
“Something.
You want stories? ‘A Grunt’s Tale, or What the Fuck?’”
“Like
Sister Magdalene reading, what was it? ‘The Red Badge of Who Gives a Shit!’”
The
laughs died.
“How
old you think Nam is? Country not the war?”
Libassi
shrugged.
“A
thousand years.” Arinello stopped for the memory. “‘Place is the clit of the
South China Sea.’ Soc said that.”
“Huh?”
“Look
at a map.”
“Soc?”
“Socrates.
Socrates is a dead nickname. Words for everything that guy had. What’d he say jungle was?” Took a second. “Fecund!” The word popped out of memory.
“Yeah, ‘fecund.’ Should hear what he called malaria and shit.”
The
laughs died again but Soc was in his head now, whispering smells, tastes. “‘Jungle’s
the cunt of the world.’ Soc said. ‘War inhales us and the forest spits out death,
rot, life; it is all the same. The end. Amen.’” Libassi turned to Arinello. “That’s
Soc. Dead now, sure-sure.”
“A
thousand years?”
“Them
villes, yeah. Grass huts, ‘imagine.’ Not stone like Italy and the Greeks. A
thousand at least, the butterbar said.”
“Butter?”
“Butterbar.
Yeah. Second lieutenant. We come out of the forest. A dog’s barking down in the
ville, always a dog’s barking. The path leads down into whatever it was called.
‘Imagine,’ LT said. ‘Huts lasting a thousand years.’
“Then
an RPG comes smoking out of that shithole, pins the man to a tree and…”
“Jesus.”
“… dog’s
still barking. But LT’s greased. Quickly dead. Anyway, the round never
detonated, Chicom shit, so I’m okay. But LT’s guts leave a trail from where we
stand back to the fecund forest.”
Then
memory. There in O’Dwyer’s Fishtown Libassi
remembered: out of that ville had come the thing, the dark he called it. Nothing else to call it. He saw it there for
the first time, he and another cherry; a crawling blackness… That’s all he
remembered.
“What
happened?”
“Huh?”
“After.”